~The Best of Friends...
2004-12-11 - 7:38 p.m.

Hey, look at my blog and I did a brain preferences kind of thing. Really interesting and relevant to this entry!!

I don't have her percentages, (although I remember her being 75% left brain) but here are Emma's results...

When you see how different we are, is it any wonder I sometimes find it hard to talk to her?
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Emma, you are somewhat left-hemisphere dominant and show a preference for visual learning, although not extreme in either characteristic. You probably tend to do most things in moderation, but not always.

Your left-hemisphere dominance implies that your learning style is organized and structured, detail oriented and logical. Your visual preference, though, has you seeking stimulation and multiple data. Such an outlook can overwhelm structure and logic and create an almost continuous state of uncertainty and agitation. You may well suffer a feeling of continually trying to "catch up" with yourself.

Your tendency to be organized and logical and attend to details is reasonably well-established which should afford you success regardless of your chosen field of endeavor. You can "size up" situations and take in information rapidly. However, you must then subject that data to being classified and organized which causes you to "lose touch" with the immediacy of the problem.

Your logical and methodical nature hamper you in this regard though in the long run it may work to your advantage since you "learn from experience" and can go through the process more rapidly on subsequent occasions.

You remain predominantly functional in your orientation and practical. Abstraction and theory are secondary to application. In keeping with this, you focus on details until they manifest themselves in a unique pattern and only then work with the "larger whole."

With regards to your career choices, you have a mentality that would be good as a scientist, coach, athlete, design consultant, or an engineering technician. You can "see where you want to go" and even be able to "tell yourself," but find that you are "fighting yourself" at the darndest times.

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OK, she did this test for me and she answered all my questions about how she thought it was basically pretty accurate, but she doesn't think she's as agitated as all that. And she was having internet connection problems. It's just that, when I started trying to tell her that I missed her and tried to explain why, she said the connection was going silly and she had to go anyway...I don't know, there's just a lack of sensitivity and a disinterest in really talking about our feelings that frustrates me. We get along soooo well, we have sooo much in common in many ways, but I need more than that. I'm emotional and introspective and relfective and I need to be able to express and talk about how I feel. Sometimes the only person I want to do that with is Emma. I don't really have anyone else in my life to do that with, because, much as I can talk to Mum, there are some things I just feel too independently about to discuss with a parent. Sometimes I can talk to Maree, but we aren't similar enough and don't see each other enough to make that worthwhile. She tends to be capable of relfection and self-analysis, but only does so when prompted.

I think if I hadn't found my net friends, I would've gone mad aaages ago! But you guys know that it's not the same as having someone you can hang out with and talk to about things. Dear Viv's probably the closest thing I've got to that, and we see each other soo rarely that it doesn't work the same as it would with Emma, who I've known my whole life and have spent soo much time with. We know each other so well, and yet there's a part of Emma that she'll never let me know, a part of me that she'll never let me tell. She just doesn't seem interested, let alone comfortable with it, very often. I think for years I mistook her introversion for introspection. That's not the same thing, at least how I understand them. You can be happy with your own thoughts, but that's not the same as thinking about yourself and your personality and so forth.

This was originally going to be a blog entry, but it became far too personal to put there.